so sporadic posting is an understatement.

the trouble with not posting often is that you don't know where to start, and each time requires a rethink about what you are prepared to say in public. the whole public/private thing can get very tricky.

suffice it to say, i'm not having the best time at work for a number of reasons, and being continually tired and stressed seems to affect quite alot of my life. but what to do is difficult. how do i fit action with what i consider to be important principles? when does speaking your mind become more than that? at what point does discussing a problem, consulting to find a solution, being a team player, descend into bitching?

and how, when you are tired a demoralised do you manage to look past the grot and take pleasure in the little things? in the clear crisp autmnal day, the mist creeping romanitcally around the hills and through the trees, the fantastic colours in nature, the surprise gift, the graciousness of those around who instead of saying 'pull yourself together' listen patiently.

i should stop now, and crawl into bed. another day past. 5 weeks until the end of term (thats 24 days left for those who are counting)
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